Its Matt again

He’s back and I'm so confused.

I love him, he loves me.

He doesn’t want to rush back into things, he doesn’t trust me. I missed him so much and now I've come to realise those other boys were just my sad attempt of filling a large hole that he left when I left.

I don’t know when he will call me and that makes me angry, he doesn’t have the money to pay for his cell phone rite now so it’s out of service-or some shit. I call every day hoping it’s up and running again but every day I get the same thing- “This bla bla bla is blaa bla or bla if you think you have reached this recording as an error please hang up and try you blabla bla again, bla”- stupid automated voice lady, Burn.

I just hope we can work things out, I care for him too much to lose him. Again. I don’t know how I’d take it this time, probably not too well.

And that’s it. He’s back and confusing me as much as ever. I swear, I can hardly think straight, let alone function normally, worrying about him like I do. The world is a big scary place out their, I don’t think he’s going to get very far all by his lonesome.